Lost. Without hope...

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

I'm sorry but what right to treat me like this?

The people at school are exactly the way I predicted. Cold and Hollow! But they WILL regret it. No people, I'm NOT saying that I will barge into school with a gun and shoot them. God NO! I'm not that stupid! Someone else might, I wouldn't be surprised if it does happen but their blood won't be on MY hands. No, I'll make those assholes wish they never treated me the way they did by simply LIVING. I will live MY life the way I want to! I will be successful somehow in the future, whether it be acting or something else, I will make money and be successful and they will wish they NEVER treated me this way!!!

Bullies don't deserve to be happy. Why do you think kids storm into school with guns in the first place??? Because of the Bullies! It isn't always the guy who starts shooting up the school's fault, the blame starts with the bullies. THEY push these innocent people to their limits. Sometimes the outcome is horrifying!!!! You people act like your lives are so miserable, so god awful...well how do you think other people feel when you bully them hmm? They want to KILL themselves. Trust me, I want to kill myself. That would be good payback. But I would kill myself before I EVER kill anyone else. I will never kill someone! Never! I have NO right to take another persons life. I am not god.

3:50 PM;
I made my ~~mark~~

Thursday, August 09, 2007

Back to School......................NAY! :(

Back to Chander High School. Sucks. I hate it. I also hate that we immediatly just got started into school and that everyone not only expects us to come they expect us to LOVE it. PALEASE! My mom is being a bitch again (surprise, surprise) My glorified idiot mentally retarded sister Laurel is being an idiot. The kids (demons) at school are retarded little mother fuckers. Nothing's changed. Surprise surprise. The world is still MEAN!

5:26 PM;
I made my ~~mark~~

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Sanjaya................OMG! BIG-FREAKIN-WHOOP PEOPLE!

Sanjaya, MY GOD HE'S ANNOYING! Everyone makes a big deal over some guy with fugly hair.....could it get MORE annoying!? Knowing the American Press....it's already started.

Sanjaya sucks on American Idol as well. Enough said. He sucks, he can't sing and the idiot producers keep him on to raise the stupid ratings (as AI/reality TV couldn't get more annoying itself) to get one thing......MONEY! OMG!!!! SHOCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Morons...

Sanjaya, I'm sorry but you need to give your dumbass hairstyles a rest as well as your dumbass vocal cords! Please, for ALLLLLLL our sakes. Please leave, there is more talent on that show that should be than some dumb idiot posing for the camera's. Hell, some BITCH starved herself for about 16 days for Sanjaya, how stupid. I forget whether she was for Sanjaya or against him. She called herself "J".........................? Okay she is stupid, she just did this for attention. Someone TRIED to defend her for the nasty comments she got from people pissed off at her for her stupid (and it was stupid) campaign for something that stupid! But she is ungreatful and is a attention wanting BITCH! Well 20 seconds of fame are hopfully and finally up. Hopefully the same for the fame grubbing dick head Sanjaya.

6:18 AM;
I made my ~~mark~~

Friday, April 06, 2007

Hollywood....aka HELL-ON-EARTH!

OMG..........omfg....................now THIS place is definatly a Soap Opera! Too much celebs with problems, I mean everyone's got problems but WOW! I think it's something in the water or something. Anyhow, I always wanted to be an actor. But I've seen what all those other celebs are going through and I realize....that is NOT the kind Spot Light I want to be in. IF I ever do make it into the land of preformance arts....it'll be on Soap...it'll be on the small screen. Because I just can't bare the thought of going to Hollywood, being a big star (as if THAT would ever happen in the first place) and become a huge sucess...I don't want to wake up one morning and see my name and face in a magazine or newspaper with some nasty comment above, or have people spread rumors about me because they're pathetic and stupid and have NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO lives OR their lives are SOOOOOOOOOO mest up that they have to turn their focus and attention to me and my problems or start rumors about to get attention and to basically not deal with their own pathetic lives. That's the human race for ya, that's America! SIGH.....and the paparazzi!!!! Oh GOD the Paparazzi is soooooooooooooooo worthless. They literally ATTACK you with camera's and scream in your ears and you just want hit them right back. I hope one day sharp glass-like icy shards fly down from the sky and kill them ALL!!!! THAT would make a good photo, and don't get me started on other bloggers out there. They make blogs and diss famous celebs because they want attention and publicity. Like for example, the most worthless peice of shit to hit the internet since Porn, was a blog titled "PINK is the New Blog" which basically has some dipshit speaking out and making fun of Hollywood Celebrities. As if they don't have enough to deal with, now they have to deal with some worthless son of a bitch who THINKS that everyone's buisness in Hollywood is HIS buisness. Well it's not, and I will get up and dance till I can't dance no more when he is gunned down for his cruelty. He's also the biggest waste of oxygen since Fred Phelps and his skeleton psychopathic family. God how I hate what our generation has succumb to..........the bastards!

3:32 PM;
I made my ~~mark~~

Sunday, April 01, 2007

One of the themes of ABC Primetime's best TV shows, "Desperate Housewives", is nosey neighboors. VERY Nosey Neighboors.

.................................Well it's a very common qaulity in EVERY neighborhood. Nosey neighboors....and that's what it is in OUR neighborhood. My god we live across the most idiotic-nosey-ass bastard's EVER! They're not even discreet. It's pathetic! Okay so there's this family that lives across from us, and the nosey crap began at least 3 years ago? (THREE YEARS PEOPLE!!!! Pathetic? I know!) I remember going around the house to get my bike and out of the corner of my eye I see that old hag-like housewife peeking and staring at me from behind the door. I'm thinking "What the hell is your problem lady? You've never seen a living-breathing human being before?" I mean my god GET A LIFE!!!!!

From there on we got stares and looks from those people day in and day out!!!!!!! Why did I choose to rant about this today? Well it's obvious, we got more looks from them as if we were and zoo and they were looking for something interesting to observe. We were moving stuff out of the garage, and I peek over across the street and I see (I think it was the grandma) the grandma standing in the drive way staring directly AT US!!!!!! She wouldn't take her eye's off us, it's freakin' CREEPY! I know, I'm being paranoid (majorally) and I need to stop getting angry over something as little as people staring at us. I get that! BUT IT MAKES ME UNCONFORTABLE! Not everyone reacts to certain things in the same way. For me, I can't stand it when people just stand there and stare and stare and stare!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's so annoying! Dozen's of times, we would be outside and those people would come out and stare at us, one time the grandma came out, saw us and called her other family members out, and they just.....stood THERE! STARING AT US!!!!!!!!!!!! OMFG!!!!! I'm a step away from filing a petition to get their asses booted out of the neighboorhood! I do not like them, they can't get entertainment from inside their house so they just stare at us because they are worthless and pathetic! None of you would want to go outside and want to see your neighbor's staring at you, obviously these people never learned that rule: IT'S RUDE TO STARE!!!!!!

Learn it you idiots and get fricken' LIVES!!!!!!!

5:50 PM;
I made my ~~mark~~

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Cinderella says it all, that is my life, a sham................nothing but misery...............................

How is my life so? Well my mom of course!!!!! She gives me and my stupid sisters CHORES which every other mom does, but my mom gives me special chores!!! I have to do all the disgusting and dirty ones, not to mention I get more then Laurel (Katlin moved out), while Laurel puts on her fancy pancy holier-than-thou act, I'm stuck doing chores 24-7.

My own mother treats me like the disappointment of the family, I am forced to do jobs for her left and right. Laurel RARELY does her own jobs and gets off easy. My mom has an evil nack for putting all her focus and attention on me and I want her to fucking back off and for once in her god damn life leave me the fuck alone! I can't stand her anymore, typical teen attitude I know, but that's how I feel. I want her to BACK OFF!!!!! Stop giving me fucking 10,0000 chores, stop making me the heart of every problem that comes into view, stop lashing you anger into me and try doing that Laurel, if we're lucky it will do some serious character assaination to her and hopefully make her stop acting so self-righteous. Though Laurel would never admit she's a houlier-than-thou child prodigy WANNA BE!!!! She never admits ANYTHING bad about herself....although if you ask her to admit something good about herself she won't hessitate to show off and lie about how sweet she is. The bitch!

6:25 PM;
I made my ~~mark~~

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Chandler High School, is pure SHIT!

I hate it there as I've said it before, the teachers may be nice personality wise but when it comes to grading they are relentless and cruel!

You forget your ID card and they call the police (I exaggerate, you get sent to study hall, but they overeact about it like it's a fricken' REAL crime. The bastards in those dumbass yellow shirts.)

Don't get me started on my Science Teacher Mrs. Heppard, who just found it so nessasary to take away my Cell Phone when I wasn't even using it. Idiot she be!

Mr. Del La Torre also drops me down to a 'F' becuase I miss one or two assignments! My God, why don't you take those cheap dollar store sissors that you keep in your desk and stab me to death with them, fucking god knows my parents will because I 'ALWAYS' have to do perfectly, human beings NEVER make mistakes, ever! (Saracastic I am...god I sound like some furry little bastard out of the Dr. Suess books!!!!)

DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE BASTARDS & THE BITCHES THAT MAKE MY LIFE EVEN MORE MISERABLE AT THAT GOD FORSAKEN DUMP OF A SCHOOL!

The looks they give me, the whispers I hear from them. God it's a never ending nightmare and I hate them all. It's not as though I would put bullets in their heads, but it does make me feel good knowing that those morons will crash and burn one day. AND YOU WILL ALL BE SORRY FOR MAKING MY LIFE A LIVING HELL!!!!!!!!! ALL OF YOU, YOU HEAR ME!!!!!

God, sorry for talking like some mental retarded person but god fucking dammit these shit heads over at CHS piss me the FUCK off!

10:30 PM;
I made my ~~mark~~

OKAY CALL ME A HIPOCRITE (SPELLED WRONG, LEAVE ME ALONE GRAMMAR POLICE!) BUT MY GOD DAMN WHORE OF A SISTER IS PISSING ME OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Laurel's such a fucking bitch! I HATE HER GUTS! I know, I said HATE was wrong but Laurel has a nack for making me HATE her with a firey red hot passion...the SCUM SUCKING SELF-RIGHTEOUS BITCH that she is!

My "holier-than-thou" trashy psychotic sister has me pissed cause she has a passion and love to tattle tale on me every chance she gets! The bitch! I hate her, she is one of the reasons I am so BITTER! She sucks up to my parents 24/7 spitting this sweet little christian girl act at them, always trying to look good and be good because she's nasty little parasite and a suck up. She sucks up so much, she just told my dad that I was eating near the computer....okay yes I shouldn't have but that little nosey skeevey little fucking slut-faced whore doesn't have to be the dark messenger. You want a place in the after life Laurel? A place the ranks above all???? I here Hell has a opening for the Devil's Whore, you'd be great at it!
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Okay I know that I sound REALLY mean, but if you only knew what this bitch has put me through. You'd GREATLY understand, TRUST ME ON THIS ONE!

8:49 PM;
I made my ~~mark~~