Lost. Without hope...

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Cinderella says it all, that is my life, a sham................nothing but misery...............................

How is my life so? Well my mom of course!!!!! She gives me and my stupid sisters CHORES which every other mom does, but my mom gives me special chores!!! I have to do all the disgusting and dirty ones, not to mention I get more then Laurel (Katlin moved out), while Laurel puts on her fancy pancy holier-than-thou act, I'm stuck doing chores 24-7.

My own mother treats me like the disappointment of the family, I am forced to do jobs for her left and right. Laurel RARELY does her own jobs and gets off easy. My mom has an evil nack for putting all her focus and attention on me and I want her to fucking back off and for once in her god damn life leave me the fuck alone! I can't stand her anymore, typical teen attitude I know, but that's how I feel. I want her to BACK OFF!!!!! Stop giving me fucking 10,0000 chores, stop making me the heart of every problem that comes into view, stop lashing you anger into me and try doing that Laurel, if we're lucky it will do some serious character assaination to her and hopefully make her stop acting so self-righteous. Though Laurel would never admit she's a houlier-than-thou child prodigy WANNA BE!!!! She never admits ANYTHING bad about herself....although if you ask her to admit something good about herself she won't hessitate to show off and lie about how sweet she is. The bitch!

6:25 PM;
I made my ~~mark~~

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Chandler High School, is pure SHIT!

I hate it there as I've said it before, the teachers may be nice personality wise but when it comes to grading they are relentless and cruel!

You forget your ID card and they call the police (I exaggerate, you get sent to study hall, but they overeact about it like it's a fricken' REAL crime. The bastards in those dumbass yellow shirts.)

Don't get me started on my Science Teacher Mrs. Heppard, who just found it so nessasary to take away my Cell Phone when I wasn't even using it. Idiot she be!

Mr. Del La Torre also drops me down to a 'F' becuase I miss one or two assignments! My God, why don't you take those cheap dollar store sissors that you keep in your desk and stab me to death with them, fucking god knows my parents will because I 'ALWAYS' have to do perfectly, human beings NEVER make mistakes, ever! (Saracastic I am...god I sound like some furry little bastard out of the Dr. Suess books!!!!)

DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE BASTARDS & THE BITCHES THAT MAKE MY LIFE EVEN MORE MISERABLE AT THAT GOD FORSAKEN DUMP OF A SCHOOL!

The looks they give me, the whispers I hear from them. God it's a never ending nightmare and I hate them all. It's not as though I would put bullets in their heads, but it does make me feel good knowing that those morons will crash and burn one day. AND YOU WILL ALL BE SORRY FOR MAKING MY LIFE A LIVING HELL!!!!!!!!! ALL OF YOU, YOU HEAR ME!!!!!

God, sorry for talking like some mental retarded person but god fucking dammit these shit heads over at CHS piss me the FUCK off!

10:30 PM;
I made my ~~mark~~

OKAY CALL ME A HIPOCRITE (SPELLED WRONG, LEAVE ME ALONE GRAMMAR POLICE!) BUT MY GOD DAMN WHORE OF A SISTER IS PISSING ME OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Laurel's such a fucking bitch! I HATE HER GUTS! I know, I said HATE was wrong but Laurel has a nack for making me HATE her with a firey red hot passion...the SCUM SUCKING SELF-RIGHTEOUS BITCH that she is!

My "holier-than-thou" trashy psychotic sister has me pissed cause she has a passion and love to tattle tale on me every chance she gets! The bitch! I hate her, she is one of the reasons I am so BITTER! She sucks up to my parents 24/7 spitting this sweet little christian girl act at them, always trying to look good and be good because she's nasty little parasite and a suck up. She sucks up so much, she just told my dad that I was eating near the computer....okay yes I shouldn't have but that little nosey skeevey little fucking slut-faced whore doesn't have to be the dark messenger. You want a place in the after life Laurel? A place the ranks above all???? I here Hell has a opening for the Devil's Whore, you'd be great at it!
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Okay I know that I sound REALLY mean, but if you only knew what this bitch has put me through. You'd GREATLY understand, TRUST ME ON THIS ONE!

8:49 PM;
I made my ~~mark~~

Saturday, March 24, 2007

LIFE IS A SOAP OPERA...AMEN!

k....So yeah any soap fan would say that, but that's only because a soap fan KNOWS! We see it on TV and it's like the real world. One problamo after another. It nevers ends. Our past comes back to haunt us, our troubles seem to be ending when infact their just getting worse and worse, the most shocking secrets come out that can destroy alot of people's lives. It happens in the real world, and it happens on TV. THAT is why I watch soaps (ABC soaps to be precise).

Right now I rant about my problems, what's happening in MY soap land when infact in other soap lands it's either just as bad or worse for other people. Especially teens. Do you realize how hard it is to be a teenager? Those of you younger wouldn't understand but you will, those who are older know EXACTLY what I am preaching about. It's Days of Our Lives in this joint folks, and the worse gets to us so easily. I have contemplated suicide............I feel like at any moment I will have a severe mental breakdown. All the pressure, all the annoying god damn pressure gets to me. But I try to control it, luckily I am the biggest coward there is and would never go through with suicide. An attempt, yes, but NEVER would actually do it. It's scary, you never know what's on the other side when you get there. When you die, you never know what's gonna happen. Are you going to just lie there, or is there another demension that awaits us. What's that demension like? Is going to be bad or good? Are we going to restart all over again, this time as a new human being? Is it like that for everyone? Contemplating what's on the other side both interesting and scary, but you SHOULD contemplate it...life may be the cruelest thing ever, and you may not want to express your fears...but as I see it...fear can be such a tremendous thing. The fear of taking your own life, the fear that it could lead to more pain then you could ever imagine, that fear is what encourages us to go on living to the fullest. To put up with our damn problems and deal with them, for us and our loved ones. Life is cruel, but the after life may be the cruelest. It's sad to think about it that way...I'm not trying to scare anyone, just trying to make others see that if you think right now is bad, who the hell knows how bad it will be AFTER life.

As I said in a recent post...HATE is one of the things that cause our problems. People spit hate wherever they, well about a third of human race does in my book, while others are good loyal human beings. Hatred can make you ashamed of who you are...another reason I watch this one particular soap opera is because it's real and has a virtuous moral saying about it that ALL haters out there need to read:

"The Greatest and the Least...
The Rich and the Poor,
The Weak and the Strong,
In Sickness and in Health,
In Joy and Sorrow,
In Tragedy and Triumph,
You are ALL MY CHILDREN"

Yeah you can tell which soap I'm talkin' about, well there it is, the magnificent poem penned by the shows creator, Agnes Nixon. And what a beautiful and powerful poem it be...becuase incase you didn't read between the lines my good bloggers, it states that no matter who we are, no matter what we've done, we are ALL god's children. ALL of us, and haters and such can't say otherwise. Keep this poem close to your hearts people, and for those of you wavering on the edge...hang in there, that's all I got to say. I'm hanging, it's fun, has a nice breeze...lol!

10:51 PM;
I made my ~~mark~~

Thursday, March 08, 2007

FINALLY! THE SOAP GODS ANSWERED ME PRAYERS...!!!

Get this, All My Children's Head Writer Megan McTavish was FIRED! OH HAPPY DAY!!! Your probably wondering why I am re-joycing in someone's firing. Well isn't obvious, she was the WORST AMC writer EVER! Totally stupid, hated her storylines, none of them made sense what so ever. She and the other two stooges (Brian Frons and Julie Hanan, the ABC Daytime president and the producer of the show) THOUGHT it would be a "good" idea to fire Cady McClain (Dixie Cooney Martin, AMC) and kill off her character, a character which I might add was on before I was even born. It was like killing off Erica Kane!!!! I hate them imensly for this horrible idea, one of the reasons of McClain's firing was becuase they didn't know what else to do with her character...uhhhh.....can you say FUCKING MORONS? Some people just aren't good at their jobs, and THESE people are fucking AWFUL! Just plain awful at their jobs...if I ever run into Brian Frons, let's just say I won't be able to hold myself back from kicking the son of a bitch's ASS!!! I hate them and will never stop. If Dixie isn't brought back so help me god!!!!!!! Sorry but I am simply FURIOUS!

2:36 PM;
I made my ~~mark~~